Not a day goes by where I don’t hear it and almost believe it. It’s that voice that whispers and reminds me of all the awful things I wonder about myself, and this journey as an adoptive and foster parent. But there’s a few truths I’ve discovered about this voice.
You heard it, didn’t you? I’m willing to bet, the moment you opened your eyes this morning, it whispered. Heck, it may have even infiltrated your dreams. Like a thief entering your house undetected, it slithered it’s way into your bedroom and poured itself right into your ear. It whispered to you before you even moved your body from beneath your covers. I know you heard it because I heard it too…
….you’re going to fail today!
….your kids hate you!
….you’re a terrible mother!
….those mean things the therapist said the other day about you and your kids? They’re all true!
….your spouse wishes he was married to someone else!
….it was a mistake to adopt!
….your daughter’s attachment issues are your fault!
….if only you could have protected your other children from your son’s violent aggressive behavior, your family would have been better off!
….your friends are right- you aren’t called to do this!
….why even try? Your son will make everyone’s day a living hell!
….why did you even decide to foster? Your life is too out of control. You’re going to screw these kids up worse!
On and on and on, like a broken record, skipping back to the same lyrics, this voice whispers lies deep into your mind. So intensely, so fierce that you believe them. You cave and begin to accept them as truth. You adjust your life to match the demands of this voice and it slowly takes every ounce of energy you have away.
Like I said, I hear it too. Heard it this morning, in fact. I get it. I know the struggle of pulling yourself out of bed only to face the same uphill climb that you faced yesterday. I know the insecurity that floods your entire being as a result of hearing it whisper to you. But, I’ve discovered two big things about this voice….
- It’s a complete and total lie.
- When you hear it the most, it means that something good is just around the corner.
As a Christ-follower I’ll call the voice what (and who) it is- Satan. My spiritual enemy at work in the background of my life every single day. The father of all lies. A thief that has one goal- to steal, kill and destroy everything good and right and positive in my life and on this journey as an adoptive parent.
Now, you may have read my two realizations above and decided, “No way! I AM a failure. I SHOULDN’T have fostered. I AM screwing my kids up. I AM a terrible mother (or father)!” Or, you concluded that NOTHING good is just around the corner. There’s absolutely no way. And that my friends is exactly what the enemy wants you to believe.
Want to know why? It’s simple, really. The moment you start thinking positively. The moment you begin fighting hard core for your child’s heart, the moment you decide to love your broken child fiercely and without condition, is the moment the enemy begins to lose. He wants you to believe the lies he tells you. He wins when you do. And you better believe he kicks his tactics into overdrive the second you start to believe otherwise. If he can convince you to retreat, and cower to the whispers, then there’s no way you’ll experience the good things that will eventually show up.
Call this voice that whispers to you from the moment you wake up, to the moment you fall asleep (until you’re wakened in the middle of the night…:-)) exactly what it is….an attack on anything and everything that is good, and right, and worthy.
Your journey as a foster and adoptive parent is good, and right, and worthy. The truth is, you were called to do what you do. You were called to adopt. You were called to foster. This didn’t happen accidentally. It was a beautifully designed plan. And the children you’ve been blessed with are precious, and worthwhile, even though they may be extremely difficult because of the traumatic places they’ve come from.
You were called to love. And you were called to lead this precious family you’ve been given.
The next time that voice whispers lies, remind him what is true. Go down the list…
…You’re lying to me…I’m called to do this!
…My child’s attachment is NOT my fault!
…I AM a good parent, because I choose to stay in the fight!
…I have purpose and meaning.
…We’re going to reach a big breakthrough at some point, I just know it!
…My son DOES have a purpose, and hope, and a future, in-spite of his behavior now!
…I am dearly loved, and cherished, by a Heavenly Father, even though this journey can be really tough and I can take it personally!
…I am changing this child’s life by choosing to care for him through the darkness of the trauma he endured before he came to me!
…It WASN’T a mistake to adopt, and I’m SUPPOSED to be doing this!
Take comfort in knowing that we know exactly what this battle feels like. We know how much you love your children because we love our children that much too. We know how exhausted you are. We know how many times you’ve felt like giving up. We know the passion that burns in your heart. We’re in this trench with you. We hear the whispers early in the morning until late at night. We know the intent of the enemy that wants you to fail.
But, we know this truth…you were meant to do this! You are changing the lives of the children in your care. The children you brought into your home. It may be hard to see it, and you may not see it in your lifetime, but it’s true. Keep believing what is really true about you.
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