What About Anger Toward My Child’s Birth Parent?

We talk often about forming positive relationships with birth families. But what do you do when you can’t get past the anger you feel toward them?

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If you know us, you know we are strong advocates for open adoption. We often write and speak in favor of open relationships with a child’s birth family. In our own family we have regular contact with biological parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles and even brothers and sisters. We feel that if it is possible and safe to have an open relationship with a child’s birth family, you should.

Often when we talk about respecting birthparents we are met with someone who counters, “How am I supposed to deny my anger? I can’t love the person who hurt my child.” While we never encourage foster and adoptive parents to pretend that unpleasant feelings do not exist, we do encourage all people to treat one another with respect. Sometimes we can be fooled into thinking that when anger is present, no other emotion can exist. This simply is not the case.

Think of the last time you were angry with your child. Mine was yesterday afternoon. I asked my child to pick up his backpack. He glared at me, rolled his eyes, and kicked his bag. We battled wills over the proper placement of the backpack for a few moments. I placed one hand on my hip and another pointing sharply at the backpack. My face held an expression of no-nonsense and my tone lowered. I felt my heart pick up pace and as my eyes narrowed. In the end, my son put his back pack away then immediately served a consequence for his behavior. Throughout the interaction, I felt frustration, disappointment, anger and even love. More than one emotion can exist at the same time. We don’t ever want someone to pretend things are conflict-free with birthparents. A perfect conflict-free relationship with another human being is just not something any of us can attain.

So what do we do when we feel anger? According to Wikipedia, “anger or wrath is an intense emotional response. It often it indicates when one’s basic boundaries are violated.” According to the Collins English Dictionary, “Anger is the strong emotion that you feel when you think that someone has behaved in an unfair, cruel, or unacceptable way. We are not meant to deny anger. Anger is a response to a real or perceived injustice. When the injustice is real, I like to think of the response as righteous anger.

Righteous anger is what moves us to action. That initial anger response may move us to stand up to a bully. It may drive us to tackle a social injustice. Anger may propel us toward saving the whales, cleaning up oceans, or fighting for fair and equal wages. Anger may move us to protest, campaign, change laws and stand up for those who are weaker. Anger may even be the emotion that wakes us up and drives us to foster or adopt out of a broken system that exists in a broken world.

Even Jesus felt anger. Matthew 21:12-13 is a short paragraph describing a time when Jesus went into the temple and discovered that it had been turned into a place where venders were gathering to sell items to those who had come to worship. Jesus had an immediate and swift reaction to the injustice he discovered. “Jesus entered the temple courts and drove out all who were buying and selling there. He overturned the tables of the money changers and the benches of those selling doves. It is written, he said to them, ‘My house will be called a house of prayer, but you are making it a den of robbers.” Jesus saw that something was wrong and was moved to action.

Many of us became foster and adoptive parents because we saw the injustices our children were facing and it filled us with anger. Whenever we see that something is wrong, we strive to make it right. We advocate at our children’s schools, court hearings, visits, IEP meetings, doctor’s offices and therapists. When our children are singled out because of their story, our anger drives us to educate neighbors, friends, family members and even professionals. Anger cannot be denied. It is often the initial emotion that stirs the fight inside of us.

We cannot exist on just this emotion of anger. We must also have love. Love motivates us to fight for our children even after the anger has subsided. Love drives us to protect. Love drives us toward action. Love is also what moves us to nurture. Love is what fills our heart so full that we feel it might burst. Love is what overflows out of our spirit. Love has a power that anger will never have. Love has the power to forgive. Love overcomes anger.

As foster and adoptive parents, we will always be faced with the tough stories of our child’s past. It’s ok to feel hurt if your child was hurt. It is ok to feel sad if someone made your child feel sad. It is ok to feel anger toward the person who hurt your child. It is ok to feel rage, disgust and bitterness. Your child will feel those feelings too. When you do experience those emotions, commit to not staying there. Your child is a beautiful creation. If you live in the negative emotions you are risking that your child will think your emotions are a reaction to their character and identity. If you show respect to your child’s birthparents, ancestry, heritage and culture of origin, you can’t go wrong.

Question: Are you wrestling with anger toward your child’s birth parent? Share your story with us in the comment section below. You can leave a comment by clicking here.

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  • Christy

    This week, I have begun digging through the two large binders of disclosure and history information we got when we adopted two of our children. I am doing this because we are about to have a full neuropsych a valuation done on one of our children as well as an FASD evaluation, to try to get to the bottom of what is causing him so many problems with his behavior and in learning. He has been diagnosed with many things over the last five years, but none of them are consistent. There are certain professionals who are convinced he is one thing, while others are convinced he’s another thing, while others are convinced his struggles are due to early childhood neglect and that with time he will be come more high functioning. So I have been reading through these files in order to go through his entire medical history so I can answer questions about his previous diagnoses, medications he has been on over the years, etc. But the file also contains his entire history with CPS, which started when he was one and ended when he came to us at five. I am reading all of the instances that are documented that have contributed to his issues that we are dealing with now. As his parents, we are downstream of the years of neglect, probable in utero exposure, endangerment and trauma he lived through, which all factor into what we deal with every day. So your post this week was very timely for me 🙂 but while I have felt anger toward his mom for all of these things, I have also marveled at who he is becoming despite all of the predictions about him when he was younger. He is doing things now that people who were in his life before predicted he would not be able to do. His behavior, while still at times troubling, has gotten so much better. I look at how far he’s come, and I am actually very encouraged that his future is bright. We do want to find out everything we can about what is going on inside of his head so we can help him, but he is an incredible human being and is becoming more and more enjoyable as time goes on. And we are so grateful to be part of that journey. So while I do feel frustration and anger on the days that I feel like I am staring down the consequences of someone else’s terrible decisions, I also feel extreme gratitude and joy that I get to watch this little human being’s transformation, as slow as it seems at times.

    Thanks for all you do!

    • Allisonm

      This is an awesome comment! Moving past the “staring down the consequences of someone else’s heartbreaking decisions” part enough to recognize the grandeur of my son’s transformation, which has far exceeded anyone’s hopes, has been one of the things that keeps wind in my sails. Thank you for sharing your son’s victories with us.