Parenting children with special needs can be extremely exhausting and overwhelming. Sometimes, you need a break. How do you balance the need for this with your responsibility as a mother to your children? Ellen shares some great words of wisdom from her own trying experience!
This is a hard post to write because it’s a big issue. It’s something I am constantly working on, an ongoing journey that changes along with the needs of my family. This is not a post about parenting kids with disabilities, or about parenting adopted kids who live with the trauma from their past, or even a post about parenting children with mental health issues. It is a post about parenting in the trenches, whatever that means to you, because mainly this post is about you, the parent, and how you are dealing with the extra needs in your family.
Parenting kids with high needs affects everyone in the family. Whether it’s a child with a disability, mental health issues, or trauma (or a combination of those), the reality is that at some point – and as hard as it is to admit – there might come a time when mama needs help.
It is so easy to focus on what our children need, to allow a schedule to become dictated by their therapists, specialists, or counselors. As parents we do everything we can to meet their needs, sometimes even at our own expense.
Now let me pause for a moment and acknowledge there are many special needs parents out there who do not feel they live with extra needs, or they feel their kids with disabilities are no different than their typical kids; this post is probably not for you. But this post is for all the parents out there who feel wrecked, like they can barely go on, who wish that someone out there cared enough and had the courage to enter into their pain. Those parents who have, many times, locked themselves in the bathroom and sobbed.
Parenting children with high needs can be so incredibly hard and painfully lonely.
My middle daughter not only has cerebral palsy, but she lives with the trauma from spending the first four years of her life in a Ukrainian orphanage. She is not the only one living with the trauma, however. It affects everyone in the family. She has mental health issues. Along with trauma, she has reactive attachment disorder (a “symptom” of trauma), depression and anxiety that could be related to her disability, or her trauma, or both. Nothing has broken me more than parenting her, dealing with the behaviors, the manipulation, and the survival that she lives with no matter how much we love her.
It was just a few months ago when we finally came undone. When after weeks of challenging behaviors, my daughter unbuckled herself and raged in our van, kicking the door, shouting hateful words at us, and hitting her head as hard as she could. All because we were taking her to a party she decided she did not want to go to. My youngest daughter cried silently in her car-seat, closing her eyes as tightly as she could. My oldest broke down, saying, “I feel like our family is falling apart!” That statement was all it took for me to break down too, sobbing, and realizing I needed help, because I too felt broken. So very broken.
I was not living, I was merely surviving. I could not keep living like this, and my family could not keep living like this.
Weekly calls to her pediatrician and weekly intervention did not seem enough. She wasn’t sleeping so we were not sleeping either. And then one day as I talked to one of her therapists she said, “I see trauma symptoms in you, I was wondering if you would be open to doing neurofeedback too? This tension you are living with is not helping you or your daughter.” Just the day before I had told my husband I felt like I had PTSD and perhaps I needed to see a counselor. That call confirmed the fact that I needed help.
So I want to talk to you, my fellow parent who feels wrecked. It is okay to ask for help.
There was a recent study done (September 2014) that looked at the mental health of parents of children with a “special health care need.” These parents are those who identified themselves as having a child with a “chronic disease or disability” or “emotional problems.” The results of the study were as follows:
Cross-sectional analyses indicated that parents of a child with special care needs reported poorer self-rated mental health, greater depressive symptoms, and more restrictions in instrumental activities of daily living (IADL). Parents of a child with special health care needs had greater increases in depressive symptoms over time and greater declines in instrumental activities of daily living than parents of typically developing children. Perceived control was a robust predictor of all health outcomes over time.
I think we need to start talking about this. This is a big deal!
What happens in our home – the stress, the extra needs, the lack of sleep, the limited support – it affects us! We are more likely to struggle with depression, anxiety, and poor mental health. So what are we going to do about it? We will do whatever it takes to care for our kids, but, will we do whatever it takes to take care of us? Our kids need us! So friend, pick up the phone and make an appointment to see a counselor. I’ve been there, and seeing a therapist, even if only a few times, does a lot for my heart. Especially if you feel like you do not have close friends that are willing or able to walk this journey with you, get a counselor! It is so important to have someone to talk to. YOU ARE WORTH IT! Pick up the phone and make an appointment with your doctor. Take medication if necessary. I’ve been there. It is humbling. But it can make such a difference! For a while my anxiety was becoming debilitating and I had to ask for help. There is no shame in battling your own mental health issues, and it is so important to have a clear head as you parent your kids. Friend, YOU ARE WORTH IT!
Talk to friends and family about needing help. Sometimes help comes from the most unexpected places. YOU ARE WORTH IT!
Find something that gives you life. Whatever that is, make time for you. You need time for yourself. You really do. Please do not feel guilty about a girl’s night out. Do not feel guilty if you enjoy time away from your kids, it is okay. Go, have fun. YOU ARE WORTH IT!
And I want you to know I am praying for you, you are not alone, I know what it is like to feel wrecked. Don’t forget that taking care of us is the best thing we can do for our kids. Your kids need a mama ready to face the world and it’s challenges, and sometimes mama needs help to get there. It’s okay. YOU ARE WORTH IT!
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