One of the biggest places we’ve felt the least amount of support and understanding is the church. But this needs to change. It begins by honestly communicating the reality of our “church” experience…
I hate going to church. I’m not one to beat around the bush. So yes, I hate it! It sounds shocking, I know. Especially since my husband’s a pastor. Not just the Sunday morning kind of church either. I hate all church functions. Bible studies. Small groups. That kind of church.
So I don’t do it. It’s too much. Too much for them, and therefore, too much for me. Although not all of my kids have a diagnosis, I’ve come to learn that all adopted children have “special” needs. And this has made me very aware of other families who have children with special needs. I’ve had lots of negative experiences at school and Target. Costco. Restaurants. You name the place. If I took my kids there, it was bad at some point with one of them or all of them. And I got looks and offers of help and advice. Chances are, I probably won’t see these people again who judged us.
But I’m going to see my church people again. THEY are MY people. And that is why I hate it. It hurts more to have negative experiences with MY kids at MY church with MY people.
One time I was visiting a church with my two newly adopted kids who were both 2 at the time. I hadn’t put them in childcare yet because it’s best to keep them close to their new mommy and not let others care for them until they know the difference. Childcare is like putting them right back into an orphanage setting. I know it’s not the same. You know it’s not the same. But they don’t know it’s not the same. So I always found a cry room and kept them with me for a long time after they came home. YAY for cry rooms!
I found a cry room at this church too. I was amazed at this cry room! Unlike most church cry rooms, it was huge. And had a sink. A sink! Lots and lots of chairs. Did I mention it had a sink? They thought of everything to make momma and baby’s church experience blessed. The guest services lady even opened the door for me, struggling to push my big, bulky double stroller through. And then another momma followed me. So 2 of us mommas were in a great big room with a sink and lots of chairs. And then that nice guest services lady opened her mouth.
The cry room is for nursing mothers and their infants. If another mother comes in, they get priority. We have good childcare for children if you’d like me to show you where to go.
That lady didn’t know who I was. If she knew I was a PW, she probably would not have said that out of politeness to a pastor and his family and would let me sit wherever I pleased. I’m building a case for the title so bear with my bragger-esque tone.
A title should never matter.
But neither should this have been her response to a mother who wants to attend church and is trying to find a place so her toddlers don’t disrupt the service. I walked out knowing my toddlers were not welcome in that church’s cry room. I’m a seasoned church-goer. But there are a lot of moms out there that if THAT was their first church experience, they would NEVER go back. We’ve been hurried along in the hustle and bustle at “fun,” spiritual, NORMAL family-friendly church events. Seriously. Hurried along by the volunteers. Rudely hurried along. Again, they didn’t know who we were. Probably would not have hurried us along if they knew this family belonged to one of their new pastors.
I’ve been snapped at because I went to the wrong door when I dropped my kids off. Snapped at because I tried to put my 3 and 4 year olds in the same room to keep them together once I did finally put them into childcare at church. Keeping them together lessens the trauma. Certainly can’t break the rules. 3s go on THIS side. 4s on THAT side. And I’ve watched as a volunteer in an adjoining room eyed my son who I admit was having a super hard time with his self control. Going to church stresses him out and he struggles because of it. This man didn’t know I was Mom because…well our eyes don’t match…and neither does our skin.
I watched. He eyed. And then I talked to my son. And then he was eyeing me. Like a long time eyed us to let me know of his disapproval.
And then I heard Bible verses coming from his side of the room.
I wanted to vomit.
I know a kid with Asperger’s who has been kicked out of church every single Sunday. The “normal” kids know it and pester him. And this kid can’t take it. So who gets in trouble? What may seem like poor parenting…or if only his parents would just give him medicine to calm him down…is NOT the case of some, and they should never be turned away because our churches can’t handle their behaviors. So if this pastor’s wife hates going to church, how much more do non-pastor wife kind of moms of kids with special needs hate it?
I WILL go to church again. I just might even enjoy it at some point. But will others? Church leaders, empower your volunteers by training them to care for kids like mine. Kids with special needs. Kid’s who have FASD, RAD, or behaviors that stem from major trauma. They shouldn’t have to stay home or be sequestered to “the special needs room.” I hope someday I’ll hear my kids say they love going to their church. Not because of Daddy’s title. Not because of favoring from volunteers because of Daddy’s title. But because their pastor and volunteers showed them, as kids with “special” needs, the kind of grace and love that Jesus would.
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