It’s a disease that comes with lots of stigmas and judgement: HIV. Even parents who’ve chosen to adopt children who are positive receive raised eyebrows. But the stigmas and judgement could not be further from the truth.
This month, my husband and I celebrate our 17th wedding anniversary. This month also marks the 35th anniversary of the first reported cases of AIDS in our country. I never in a million years thought I would care 17 years ago. But I do.
We did not make this disclosure decision quickly. It’s heavy. It changes my children’s future. We spent a lot of time praying and weighing the benefits.
And for sure the consequences.
We’ve been told by nearly every professional NOT TO TELL. There are some really good reasons NOT TO TELL. For starters, it’s THEIR story. Not mine. And the pain it will bring from mean children IF we tell. Mean people. Mean parents. Parents are the WORST.
Oh, the pain.
But oh, the pain of NOT telling. The unnecessary fear that still exists in our society. The ugly stigma. The secrets. The aftermath if it gets “leaked.”
I went to get financial help for very expensive medicine from a local non-profit behind the Stratosphere. Some might not get out of their car in this particular area. Even this adds to the stigma. I had an appointment with a nice, young social worker. There were posters, pamphlets, of course propaganda, and a candy jar full of condoms of every color in the rainbow sitting on her desk. I didn’t have my kids with me, but if I did, that “candy jar” would have been moved because of uncontrollable hands reaching for what they thought was sugar-filled yumminess.
“How did a girl like ME get here?” I thought with nervous bewilderment.
We made small talk. Then I told her we were thinking of disclosing. And without hesitation she said to me, “Oh you don’t want to do that! This city is harsh. I have an 80-something year old client who is so afraid someone will see him here that he won’t even park in the parking lot. He parks in the back of the office and I have to let him in through the back door. None of his friends or family know because of the ramifications.”
And in that moment, I made my decision.
No child of mine will EVER live life that way. NOT EVER!
Our family lives with HIV. LIVES WITH IT.
Two of my kids have HIV. NONE OF MY KIDS ARE DYING FROM IT.
My youngest son REALLY didn’t get a good prognosis. Not only because he was malnourished and neglected, which is what I initially told everyone, but because he almost died of AIDS.
My child who brings me more joy than I ever imagined with his kisses and stinky breath, was months away from dying of AIDS in his early days of life.
So when we rejoice in his sheer joy and his groovy dancing because we were told he might not ever walk (and I admit sometimes he gets an extra piece of chocolate cake because those eyes get me every time!), we are weeping with pride and gratitude to…
OUR GOD WHO SEES THE ORPHAN AND SAVES.
So we can advocate as informed citizens and get little to nowhere. Or we can advocate and educate as parents of our amazing Dominican-born children and actually be heard.
There are just a few things I have to say now about this living with HIV thing…
- If people just stopped having unprotected sex and stopped doing drugs, IT WOULD GO AWAY.
- No need to be afraid of my kids. HIV is spread through very specific ways: unprotected sex, sharing of drug needles, birth and breastfeeding. So as long as our kids are not doing those things together, your kids will be OK.
- Medication keeps their viral load at “undetectable.” Translation: There is such a small amount of virus in their body, modern tests can’t find it. What this means to you: they are not contagious EVEN IF they are doing those above mentioned things.
- I’m FOREVER grateful for efforts made by non-faith based organizations. AKA, Non-Christians. Don’t publicly claim to know Jesus kind of people. People like Elton John, Bank of America and their Red Campaign. And the ULTIMATE reason prompting disclosure….
- Although I’m grateful for #4, I wish it was my church.
I want my kids to be loved, accepted and helped by THE church.
Where was the church in the 80’s?
Where is the church NOW?
The rest of world beat us.
IT SHOULD HAVE NEVER BEEN THIS WAY.
IT SHOULD NOT BE THIS WAY NOW.
You can help make the world a safer place for my kids and for the millions of others who experience stigma EVERY SINGLE DAY of their life. This momma is begging you. Please join us in educating and showing mercy to those living with HIV. Help give them a reason to WANT to live.
This is what pops up on the screen when I get money out of the ATM machine. Still think it’s a gay person’s disease? An ugly stigma? A curse? You’re wrong!
IT’S A DISEASE.
No longer a slave to fear.
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